things that happened in the past, it's good for no one. I talk to myself sometimes, i must be just like you.
kind gestures make me anxious sometimes, It's something i am desperate to unlearn. I tear it up to shreds before it's even done. It's just another nervous habit.
But when i wake up, to see you sitting there, been up for a while now by yourself, I always feel a little guilty. And when i wake up to see you're still asleep, I will roll over to embrace you. In this moment I want to live. I want to live like this forever.
In a moment i can't breathe, my chest tightens like it always does, and once again i fail to say your name. I wanted to be calm, I swear i tried so hard, still, in the end I'm everything I'm not. But you assure me that it's fine, that i should trust I'm still alive, and if I died, you wouldn't be right next to me. So You clasp your hands round mine, as the confidence drains from my face, and in its place, a fountain of blood.
I am so full of love i could explode.
Im sorry i talk so much about death, its just always on my mind. I still don't know if i believe in ghosts but i feel them even when i'm all alone.
I am made of love for you.
And though i know we both are sore we soon will feel relief, through antique tones and synthetic homes, our lives have yet to cease.
from Never The Same Again, Thank Goodness (DELUXE),
released September 12, 2018
Music & lyrics: Hazel
Vocals: Megurine Luka V4 English
Special thanks to Spencer Jordan for helping me with one of the bass parts, and to Alyssa for being the best partner a gal could ask for.